Oftentimes during the holidays, we get together with family that we would not otherwise choose to spend time. We attend family gatherings out of tradition, for enjoyment and perhaps to keep peace.
I personally am not a fan of holidays at all - the drama, conflict and inability to be myself without judgement or criticism. I used to escape by snowboarding to avoid them altogether. However, recently I have attended the big ones focusing on those whom I enjoy.
After each event comes a "recovery period" - healing, making peace with whatever part of self felt probed or derailed, and physically from food I would not generally eat.
Every year, I am torn. I have wonderful groups of friends that have lovely and vibrant dinner parties, but once again: to go and escape or to face another cycle of obligation?
I have tried viewing the situation and people through a lens of compassion and forgiveness. Before every event, I prepare with strong energetic protection. I push my limits, tolerance and flexibility to the max.
Despite much effort I concluded that frequencies and personalities are disparate - they do not vibrate harmoniously. They don't match. They don't get along.
I know there is a karmic lesson here but I'm stuck and unresolved. What are your opinions and ideas? Would love to hear your insight.