Every morning, I arise from bed, go to the bathroom, light incense and candles for the altars, do a few stretches to prepare for meditation, and then sit quietly until it feels natural to come out. Sometimes I add chants or sound vibrations. If needed, I will do a chakra clearing with crystals. However, most mornings, it is silent sitting. The soreness or tiredness before meditation dissipate as the physical, emotional, and mental bodies become calm and light like the tranquil sea.
Only until very recently have I desired to dig deeper, activate further. The movement has begun. In no particular order, here were the signs/progressions:
- Internal knowing that I was ready to work with malachite in Africa (May 30th)
- Repeated snake, caduceus imagery and a desire to dive further into Kundalini/deeper breath work (May/June)
- Strong Ek Ong Kar presence/encounters
- Angel number shift from 1111, 1234 to 00, 000
- Receiving insights from my friend who practices sadhana @3:45AM everyday
- A profound experience in Marlize Joubert's 7/10 meditation class
Marlize leads a breath work class at Hot8Yoga Sunday @7:00PM. I used to go more often but started taking Sunday morning class instead. However, last night was the first time back in a long while and the experience was deep.
At the beginning of class we introduced ourselves and set an intention. My intention was to make my meditation practice more active and to dive deeper. I briefly explained that I needed more than silence. I need to add breath work/kriya to activate/dig deeper/heal rather than bathe in peace alone. Perhaps the next layer of work. Marlize highlighted the connection between this urge and Mars going direct (YAY!).
In class, we practice an in/out through the mouth breathing technique filling first the belly and then the upper chest. This breath and breath of fire produce similar effects for me. Tonight almost my entire body felt electrified/vibrating/pulsating with energy. The major sensation started in the solar plexus and traveled up to the heart space, throat, along both sides of the neck, third eye and crown. Legs/feet, arms/hands felt the same. At one point a heavy weight seemed to rest on my sternum. All I could see in third eye space was swirling green malachite. At times the entire body felt cramped with most intensity at the hands.
The 25 minutes passed so quickly. Upon ending and returning to a regular breath, my entire body was electric and paralyzed. I could not feel breath. I laid in this state for as long as possible...
I'm not sure what will come of this new phase, but I'm excited and will start to do 30 minutes of this breath work everyday!
This story is a reminder that once we get comfortable in a habit or phase, there is always the next layer. #digdeeper #awaken #activate #beyondcomfort